What God taught me in 2017
Well, it’s almost a wrap for 2017 and all month I’ve been reflecting on this entire year. 2017 has been such a blessing. The Lord carried me through so much. This entire year was about learning to fully depend on Him in all things. As a result, my relationship with Him grew deeper and I experienced His love and presence like never before. He taught me so many lessons so I wanted to share a few of them and the scriptures I lived by this year.
1) 'The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.' Psalm 34:17-18
During this year, I truly learned how to depend on Him to heal my broken heart and remove the soul ties that remained. I will be transparent and say that I didn’t have an easy time healing from my past relationship. Well, some days were easy, but most were not. It took a while for me to accept being alone again and not having someone validating me. I had to protect myself from music and such things that would remind me of that relationship. I had some really low moments as well where I couldn’t forgive myself for living in disobedience during that time. God was letting me know that I was forgiven, so I needed to forgive myself. This year was tough when it came to healing and moving on, but I’m so thankful for the healing process. I learned so much about myself in that season and the voids that I had in my heart. I learned how to fight back the sadness with God’s word on healing and contentment. He gave me comfort, power, and the courage to move on. I gained contentment and confidence in Him. He gave me peace in knowing that I was where I needed to be; that’s what healed my sadness. God was with me, filling up the voids in my heart, and making me whole again.
2) 'Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.' Proverbs 3:5-6
I learned firsthand that having goals are good as long as we don’t leave God out of them. Back in January/February, I was so consumed with finding a summer internship before my senior year of college. I had this idea of what I thought I wanted to do with my career so I ran with it and applied to at least 10 internships in that field. To be honest, I wasn’t really sure of what I wanted to do. I tend to have premature ideas in my mind and run with them, whether from God or not. During that process, I was asking God to bless me with the internship instead of asking what He thought I should be doing with my summer. The Lord reminded me that He was in control, but I was trying to lead myself, rather than letting Him lead me. I was running after an internship in a career that He wasn’t calling me to be in. I didn’t receive a call back from any of those internships, but I was immediately at peace about it. The Lord let me know that I would spend the entire summer in His word and build a deeper relationship with Him. *Distraction free! * Even though my desire at first was for an internship, thank God for Him being in control. He knew It would have been a complete waste of time, money, and it wasn't in His will.
3) 'So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.' Matthew 6:31-34
*This ties into the first lesson*
Once the summer came, I decided that I wouldn’t spend all my time trying to figure/plan my life out. I knew that God didn’t want me to get a summer job. He wanted me to rest, surrender all my worries to Him, and focus on seeking His kingdom and righteousness. I developed a deep, burning desire to learn more about Him and know His will. I made Him my first priority, depended on Him, and learned to be satisfied with Him only.
As a result, He really blew my mind all summer long. He provided for every one of my needs! He provided me with plenty of temporary opportunities to make money when my savings got low. He provided free tickets for me to go to the Pinky Promise Conference. He provided above and beyond what I was expecting financially. (And He keeps on providing!) God was never late. He knew what I stood in need of and took care of it. (And I am not just speaking on finances) He continues to provide me with the words to write on this blog or my Instagram. He has also revealed to me where I should be applying for jobs after college and what I'll be doing for His kingdom. He is honestly so so good! He waited until I was ready to receive and when He knew He could trust me before revealing what was next. It was me putting Him first and seeking His kingdom that He showed me that all I need to do was trust Him to provide. I don’t have to try and figure things out on my own. I truly learned how to depend on Him for everything.
Around this time last year, I wasn’t in a position to receive the fullness of God because I was living in disobedience. I honestly was confused about everything in my life while living outside of His will. Fast forward to today, almost a year later, It’s just amazing how God will move things in your life once you’re in position. Since I chose to seek Him first, He has revealed to me the plans He has for my life. He had been preparing me for the next season. This year has been all about learning, transparency, and stepping outside of my comfort zone. 2017 was amazing and I am so thankful for all that I learned this year. I can’t wait to see what God has ahead in 2018!
Amaiya K ♡