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  • Writer's pictureAmaiya Kiara Rucker

Trust Him Anyway

Trust Him when you don’t understand.

Trust Him when it looks like the odds are against you.

Trust Him when your mind wants you to doubt.

Trust Him when the process is taking longer than expected.

Just trust Him anyway.

So I’m 10000% sure I’ve been in a wilderness season. I have been going around the same mountain over and over for months. I would read my word and be refueled and empowered. But I didn’t realize that I was in a spiritual battle and needed to STAY in my word. If I let one day pass without reading my Bible, I would be attacked with doubt and worry all over again. I didn’t intentionally want to keep going around the same mountain, but thoughts of graduating and not having a job right after college consumed me. I wanted things to work out the way I planned it in my head. Ultimately, I was telling God that He was in control of my life, but I was still trying to call the shots.

This brought on so many emotions and God had to work it all out of me. He’s been pruning me of traits that aren’t like Him. He knew I still needed to learn to trust that He was God and was in control. I needed to learn to surrender my plans and follow His.

I have never truly experienced spiritual warfare until now. The enemy has been using every tactic he can to try to break me. Some days I would be so discouraged. I would cry in my bed for hours feeding myself the word of God while my flesh tried to fight it. Those were the most strengthening moments I have ever felt. Trying to fight back the enemies lies while in a broken and discouraged state was hard! I had overcome my flesh regardless of how low I may have felt about my situation; I had to force feed myself the word of God so negative thoughts didn’t rule over me.

From that moment on, I have to ask God every day for His full armor from Ephesians 6:12. I have to be intentional about protecting myself from the enemy’s attacks. I have to prepare my mind to stay focused on God and not my circumstances. I can’t allow myself to be double-minded because I have to pass this test. God has truly been demonstrating His strength in my weakness.

'But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ' {2 Corinthians 12:9}
'For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore, put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.’ {Ephesians 6:12-17 NIV}

Worrying is a waste and does nothing but pull you further away from God. When we are in His will, we don’t ever have to worry or doubt that God will take care of us. It is already done. Thank God that He has already written our future. We must keep our eyes on Him, not our circumstances. 

'Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? ' {Matthew 6:27}

At first, I hated this season and was ready for it to be over. Now I am so thankful for it. God has been doing a great work in me. This season has been a training ground for me in many ways. His silence on the job topic made me fully dependent on Him for strength, patience, and peace in the waiting. I learned to let go of my plans. 

I know I say this in every blog post, but I’m much closer to Him than before. I see Him as a loving father that will never leave me.

To be honest, I still don’t know what’s next. But I am refusing to go around that same mountain. I am determined to pass the test and trust God. God is not surprised. He knows what we need. Don’t take your eyes off God just because things aren’t happening when you think they should. Don’t try to make things happen and end up outside of His will. Remember His ways are not our ways. His thoughts are not our thoughts. Just be patient.

Prayer: Lord, we honor you and thank you for who you are and all that you have done for us. Thank you Lord that you take care of us. We know that worrying is a waste and does nothing but pull us further away from you so please God, help us to keep our eyes on you and not our circumstances. We know that we have nothing to worry about as long as we are in your will so we thank you in advance for all that you are going to do. God, we know that your will for us is already done, it’s just waiting for us to get there. In the waiting, we thank you for all that you have been doing in us and through us. Thank you for all that you are, all that you have done, and all that you are going to do. In Jesus name, Amen.

Amaiya K ♡

'Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. ' {Psalm 37:3-4}
'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.' {Isaiah 55:8-9}
'So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. ' {Isaiah 41:10}

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